January 18th, ‘99 – Dreamed I was considering moving into a dilapidated one-room suite with Juma (Cute Guy, Nevermind). We were inspecting it. I was very nervous about the prospect and it had a lot of associations, because Juma was proposing it as the embarkation on a live-in relationship. He wanted to leave his current girlfriend because he’d realized that he’d actually always loved me. The start of a whole new life from the bottom up, one my parents definitely would not condone, and I was afraid of that. I was checking the issue in a circuitous manner, and asked Juma how he slept, as we would be sharing a bed.