U2 "Your Song Saved My Life"

Bono is singing about how music saved his life, namely a song. Interestingly both Chris Martin and Bono are singing in tandem about how the love song saved their lives. What Chris Martin doesn't know is that Bono deliberately date referenced this release, in that he released it on the 29th anniversary of when I first saw him in concert, the concert that changed everything. It's on record in the iBook, p. 394, beginning of Chapter 9, and is what Chapter 9 is about. That was the day I first saw U2 live, and it was important enough to write about it and every development Bono had musically after that moment, up until meeting him in person, and afterwards, as in up until delivering this book draft where it stood to him personally in 2011, with record of said concert date. As they say, that's it. That's the tweet.

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What follows is how I'd interpret the song if the song was personally intended, if the date of the release was deliberate. It is not that I'm asserting it links in significantly to what I've written, it does not. It's just that given the significance of the date drop (on top of the other date drops), I feel "safe" offering an interpretation. There's no way to know in the sense of that none of this has ever been confirmed by Bono, of course, but let's just summarize what he's done that ties into the book (after he got the half draft of the book in 2011), which decreases the probability that all of this is coincidental every time he does it: 

Songs of Innocence

1) U2's song title for track 10 on this album quotes the sincerely line of my opening letter ("This is Where You Can Reach Me Now")

2) brings back lyrical reference to the cherry tree ("Cedarwood Road"), which is only in the song "Salome" prior (1992), a song that in the book takes almost a chapter to explain

3) writes and dedicates a song to Andy Rowen ("Raised by Wolves"), which Bono did once before ("Bad", 1984), after the book discloses it was Andy who led the writer to U2's secret studio in 1999. In the book the author's father's name means "shield wolf". I know this is truly incidental in terms of what the song relates (this was possibly the same set of terrorists), believe me. 

Songs of Experience

4) The track "Love is Bigger Than Anything in its Way" describes someone being caught by the moon crying on Killiney Bay at night, which happened the night after a full moon entry where I was singing on the roof of a Dublin pub. In the book draft Bono received (thanks to the journal entry format) this happened a little over a page before I actually met him for the first time. These elements are all in the song, along with "rage" (and the suggestion to sing instead of talk), which could have been put down to five negative articles on Bono's philanthropy dependency along these lines. Also the entire transpiration (which began with the U2 concert encounter on November 3rd 1992) began for the author at age 21. 

5) In a podcast preview right before the album's release Bono related how his laptop was stolen (even though this was an event that happened eighteen years ago), which happened very shortly after the personal encounter in 1999 in the same year, an event which figures prominently in the book

6) U2 dropped a letter snippeting the lead single's lyrics ("The Blackout", -the quote was, "blackout, it's clear, who you are will appear") on U.S. fans loosely in the path of an eclipse (delivered to coincide with the eclipse), and then released Songs of Experience on December 1st, two days before a supermoon, which was what had happened in December 1999 when I encountered him the second time (a supermoon occurred two days after). These are both time datings that occur in the book. The first time I met Bono, an eclipse hit near totality over Dublin twelve days before. Bono's lyric that triggered everything was "you know the sun is sometimes eclipsed by a moon, you know I don't see you, when she walks in the room".

7) In the live BBC performance to presage the album's release, Bono snippeted "Walk to the Water" in "All I Want is You". This happened to name the street I walked down when I first met him, and the internal response I had to what he said first in conversation, being that it wasn't cold. 

8) The bonus track, "Book of Your Heart" has Bono reading a book and describing his reaction to it, being that he now realizes the author had framed the nature and origins from the very beginning, and the book is the map of the writer's heart, every mark made on it, which would remain unchanged whether the author changed names or not. The name change had been filed with the book copyright and was then changed on all social media accounts, and was the pen name for the investigative articles. That he's reading a book (with himself in it) is reinforced by "the long descriptive passages where we don't know what to say" and "we are not fictitious characters, we don't belong to this world". 

9) in the liner notes Bono brings up childhood neighbors, (the Rowen family) to credit the family and family patriarch for being formative to his Biblical foundation, (this was conveying who gave Bono a Biblical upbringing, when the author's was her father), and says the cherry tree was in their yard. Andy Rowen only disclosed where the secret studio was to me because I out-bibled Andy by revealing something about Bono's Biblical referencing that showed Andy something he had never known about Bono, even though he'd known Bono for practically his whole life, and his brother is Bono's best friend. 

"Eden (To Find Love)"

10) stealth names the author by her real name by using combined biblical referencing in the first couplet

11) references the book a second time in terms of something that's in it (p. 79) "It was Adam not Eve who threw God out of the garden, you wrote me" -not what I said exactly, I said I'd been taught that Adam had actually sinned first

"Your Song Saved My Life"

12) released on the date (November 3rd) the author first saw U2 in concert, which is a full chapter because it started everything. This is the third date conjunction with the book

When you start to add things up it begins to change the odds. That said, if it is intentional, the intention is to attend to something while devaluing it in the same token, because it is deliberately designed to not constitute evidence to anyone else, and therefore the sum of intention (meaning Bono's manner of recognizing the author) is designed to confine that impact to the author's perception. 

If that sum of linkages is intentional, this is how I would analyse "Your Song Saved My Life", which is so far buried under layers of intention and meaning now, the words can't really be absorbed in terms of their meaning at face value. Here they have that value, in fact here that value has been unique to this existing circumstance for twenty-one years.


Your Song Saved My Life

Was a Monday morning
'Bout a quarter past four
You were busy dreaming
So what did you wake up for?

Are you a stranger in your own life?
What are you hiding behind those eyes?
Is no one looking for you there?

You know your song saved my life
I don't sing it just so I can get by
Won't you hear me when I tell you darling
I sing it to survive

You're looking for a miracle
The kind that science can't explain
The man you carry in your heart
Is only comfortable when he's in pain

Are you a stranger in your own life?
What are you hiding behind those eyes?
Can anyone find you there?
Or just me?

You know your song saved my life
I don't sing it just so I can get by
Won't you hear me when I tell you darling
I sing it to survive

Your song saved my life
The worst and the best days of my life
I was broken, now I'm open, your love keeps me alive
It keeps me alive

Your song saved my life
The worst and the best days of my life
Your song saved my life

Song saved my
Song saved my

Your song saved my life
Your song got me through tonight
Your song saved my life

Song saved my
Song saved my life

 

October 2019 I had a very big internal wake-up call thanks to one album, but it eventuated very gradually in stages. The real trigger happened July 2020. In between, my mental query to myself became, "Why am I awake?" (This is in TRiMB on p. 8. I kept repeating it to myself.) This was because I'd gotten woken up, but I didn't have a reason to be. And the reason I didn't have a reason anymore was because Bono had deliberately buried everything alive. Even every signifying action he might have taken was an act of burial because he was concealing it all and maintaining his silence. It was either that, or it had not been worth reacting to with anyone I had contacted personally in the past, same as it was with him. And to my mind that meant I couldn't reveal to anyone else because there was no evidence, which imprisoned me inside my own mind permanently. The overall point is simple. I defined what had happened to me as having been woken back up. The biggest question you could ask in that context is "So what did you wake up for?" And the reason for disappearing was because no one could see, and the person who could, apparently, it didn't matter to. And that was him. He's a little slow figuring this out. Of course if you deprive someone of the only possible evidence they can have, no one's going to see. Of course if he was the only person I told, (WPC was the second, and cared even less in the end), he was the only person who knew. TRiMB is very clear on the impact of this, p. 31: 

All my life, it has never been safe for me to speak. Not once.

That was the price, for me, of Bono's silence. That is what made me a stranger inside my own life to my children and everyone around me who never would have been able to believe me, because he denied me evidence for twenty-one years. I'm holding him culpable for ten of those, (since he got the book in 2011), but that's too long as well (the damage in that interim was plenty as well). 

Won't you hear me when I tell you darling, I sing it to survive - The song is addressed to a woman. It's her song that saves his life. Like I said, the continuity depending on how you count it goes back over 35 years. Bono just marked the 29th anniversary of the first encounter in person. The book delineates how the song is not just Bono's creative vein, it's a universal one. 

You're looking for a miracle, the kind that science can't explain - it may be inexplicable but it is observable, which puts in within scientific purview. At least I'm hoping the experiment is repeatable a second time, which is what this is about. But it is by normal standards not possible. 

The man you carry in your heart is only comfortable when he's in pain - the pain is in being awake. The pain is the conscious choice of acknowledging the connection and the choices that endows, which includes the willful choice to be that connected and be separate for life. Bono wouldn't have it any other way. It's about time though that he learned he wasn't the only one. 

Can anyone find you there, or just me? -no, it was that exclusive, which is perilous. Can anyone see you in your own eyes? The answer is no, because I cannot tell most of what matters about myself to anyone. The connectivity tracks back furthest with Bono. I traced it back in the book (in terms of this linking patterning occurring in his songwriting) to when I was thirteen years old, only with him. For twenty-one of those years it was his exclusive purview because I told him. And maybe he doesn't realize there are a lot more than just him, they just weren't told yet. (That's not quite true. I told him there were a lot in 1999. I just didn't demonstrate it.) That's changing. Now 3-5 have been told. And the real gamble, here, now, is whether it's demonstrable that there are a lot of them. 

I was broken, now I'm open, your love keeps me alive, it keeps me alive - if we're just in the purview of his songwriting, in "Eden (to Find Love)" (which was released just this past May) Bono was describing how the song's subject had broken him. Given the song stealth names me to open, I'm going to claim attribution. The original letter to MG explained how this went down between Bono and me, how we were both broken. So this song is a big shift back to being unbroken because something also brought Bono back. 

Here's the thing, I expected the shift. I expected the shift because I knew what I went through internally, in restoring me to be able to love and give love, would restore the whole thing, and I expect it. I expect exactly what's happening right now with Chris, Jack, and Bono and all the rest.

So what the record is there to show is that I am not really responsible in the sense that, Something deliberately resurrected me. Something wanted me back. And that something is not me. In that sense I am not responsible. And that Something has done so not once, but twice, which is what it took for me to understand what I was really being engaged by, that it was in every one of them. That Something/SomeOne was responsible, in saving me, for saving everyone in it. But if I'm wrong on this, then Bono's right.